I am in the process of contemplating separation and divorce. I have a daughter, “June” who will turn two this summer. Husband is away right now on business for a couple more weeks and I am slowly planning my escape. I use the word “escape” not because I am in danger, and I don’t mean to trivialize the experiences of women who are. But I do feel trapped in many ways and when he’s around, I see no way out.
I often think I am too good for him. Too smart. Too educated. I think to myself as we talk about stuff that I really don’t care about that he doesn’t stimulate me intellectually. I’m bored, disappointed, with him and with myself. But it’s not just about me anymore. How will this affect June? Sweet, loving, sensitive, June. She already hates it when we argue, even mildly. She raises her voice and tells us to stop talking. What would divorce do to her? What would it do to him? I think it would set me free. I am letting myself be stifled. Wasting my potential. I often ask myself, what have I done?
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